HOLD UP, WAIT A MINUTE

where am i supposed to post this..inute.?
I think I'm supposed to be hacking you, but I'm not a real pro so WHO KNOWS.
Stirling. Stop being silly, we're still friends of course. best friends. I don't think it's possible not to be.
That was a very very sweet note I recieved and I much enjoyed it. (:
ThankYOU Stirling for helping me become the person I am today. You know I'd be so different without you. I'd be..like that kid that crawls the hallways, crumbs falling out of their mouths.
I am not uber confident all of a sudden. I am not some loud diva either. I'm just a little less paranoid of the bad things people will think of me. A little. Now I sorta focus on the people who like me for me and share myselfs to them and the people around them. If that makes sense? I dunnnooo, whatterbkewrfhkrjglr. <--that was supposed to say "whatever".
So I say next weekend we go for icecream somewhere, and do something completely ridiculous. And i want you to know that the thought of doing that scaaarress me. I'm not suddenly invincible. I'm actually quite fragile.
Remember when I'd overthink little things people would say to me? I'd twist words and somehow make it an insult? I still get hurt like that. I still need you to remind me that I'm overreacting and that I needa take a chill pill.
DID I TELL YOU I LEARNED HOW TO SWALLOW PILLS??!!!???!! Dude, i'm stoked.
I swallower TWO the other day.
Anyway, off the topic of pills, you are my best friend and i still need you. I am definitely not better off without you. I think I might melt if I don't have you in my life.
And you know what's best about you? Your creativity. If I didn't have you, I'd probably be very cookie-cutter because I'd forget what it's like to be different and crazy. Whithout you, I wouldn't have a sane box and I wouldn't have a place to let it all out so all of me..all of me would just fade.
I don't want to fade and I don't ever want to lose you. So yes, let's remain amigas.
You should come over soon. like reeaal soon. how soon is that?